Friday, July 6, 2012

Hospice

Well it's been pretty rough... Last week I had to make the decision to have my beautiful doggie Jackie put to sleep.  It was absolutely heartbreaking, and I will miss her forever.  :-(  Now today I find out that Hospice is being sent for my Grandma... I am kind of in shock, and feel so desperately guilty that I can't be there with her.  I won't get to say "good-bye..." I am heart sick. 

I just don't know how much I can keep going sometimes... Last night I counted out my pills... "Would it be enough?"  "Would it do the trick?"  I really just can't bare all the pain... It all just hurts so much.  I am so alone...

2 comments:

  1. You are never alone. you have the strength within you to overcome anything that presents a challenge in your journey of life. it really is terrible and that doesn't even describe what is happening with your grandma and what happened with your dogggie but I also have been through the same thing. Doggie a year ago and grandma and grandpa before. it does get better. hang in there. stay strong and keep fighting.

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  2. Thank you so much for your comment Devyn... I really appreciate it the support. :-)

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