Today has been a pretty hard day... I woke up feeling pretty down, and then got a phone call telling me that I needed to be careful because people are trying to get me in trouble. It just doesn't feel like it's ever going to end, and I feel like I'm being held hostage. I just don't know how much longer I can deal with this... I think I'm finally completely broken. :-(
Also, Mom and I got into a fight, and then later her and my step dad got into a really big fight. I got scared and upset so I left for a little while, and the first time I came home I left again because things were very volatile. The second time I came back my Mom was gone... I asked my step dad where she was and he said she "went for a ride." I tried to call her and heard her cell phone ring, (as she never takes her phone with her like ever.) Obviously I was pretty worried, and was relieved when she finally came home. She is saying now that she is absolutely done with her marriage, (she has said this a lot,) so I am worried about what will happen next. Life is just an absolute roller coaster... and not the fun kind, more like the kind at Cedar Point that are old and rough and practically give you a concussion every time you step on.
Personally I am feeling pretty lost and hopeless... I don't know what I want to do, or where I want to be. I wish I could just go to sleep forever...
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