So I am having a rough day body image wise. I am generally always a little frustrated with my body, but today I am feeling particularly gross. I really feel that I look pregnant, and I'm not sure how I can get past that, or if I want to... Why would I want to look pregnant when I'm not? Anyway, Olga, (Ed,) is saying you must lose **pounds immediately or you are absolutely disgusting. Unfortunately I agree... :-( Of course I will try to continue to fight for recovery, but it may be a very bumpy road ahead!
On Thursday things went ok at Starbucks, but I learned so much that I felt like I forgot everything. At the end of the night I was getting all the numbers, (expresso shots and syrup pumps,) all mixed up, and was also getting the order of building the drinks a bit mixed up. It was like a reached a certain point, and everything just got really scrambled. I was feeling very worried that maybe I wouldn't be able to handle the job, but today I'm feeling a bit more optimistic that perhaps I can make it work. I have decided that I will go in perhaps tomorrow, (and maybe Monday or Tuesday as well,) to look through the drink manual and perhaps write some things down for myself to study. I know it might seem a bit silly, but I am of course a perfectionist, and I want to do a good job. I also don't want to make an ass out of myself haha. Hopefully I'll be able to pull it together and make it work. Who would of known that working at Starbucks would be so complicated!
Today I went to the water show for the team... I really didn't want to go, but Jaime was going so I agreed to go with her. Unforutnately it was really awkward, as I didn't really feel that welcomed. It's weird to feel like such an outsider somewhere that used to be my domain, and I almost left a couple of times... That being said though I am still glad I am no longer head coach of the club, (or that involved for that matter,) and I was especially glad I wasn't head coach for this particular show... It was not very good!
Tonight I am just going to be hanging home with my pooches... Mom is gone to Michigan, and Rich has gone to some car races, so it will be nice to just kind of hang out and have a little "me" time. :-)
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