So I don't really have much exciting to say, but I do feel like writing a bit so I will just babble haha. I don't really think anyone reads this anyway so it really doesn't matter too much! ;-)
Anyway, I am doing okay, but feeling a little down and thinking a lot... It's been hard to turn my brain off the last couple of days, and it's been hard for me to feel attached to things going on around me, or to really engage in any conversation. Yesterday my Mom and I went to the movies, (and I can't even remember the name of it... Something with Joy in it,) and then to lunch. The movie was pretty good, but it was a little awkward with my Mom unfortunately, and we got into a bit of a fight. We just think so differently that it's hard to relate to one another sometimes, and I think we both get really frustrated. We ended up okay, but it did make the afternoon quite tense for a while. Hopefully our next outing will go a little better!
Otherwise I am taking it day by day and trying to look for new hope and inspiration constantly. I don't really feel that I'm getting anywhere sometimes, but although I stumble occasionally, (today Ed won one battle,) I don't really feel that I have gone backwards so that is something I'm trying to hold on to. Hopefully at some point things will get easier and I'll be able to move forward again... Until then, I'm just trying to hang on and fight every day, sometimes hour by hour. :-)
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