I'm back home from Tucson now and am overall pretty happy. We won most categories that we were entered in, and I'm feeling pretty positive about the season so far. Unfortunately I had a bit of a rough day yesterday... I think the day was just a little too long for me, and there was no real opportunities to have a break. You go from coaching to judging, to coaching and back and forth so it's a bit hard. I also waited way too long to eat last night, and got a bit emotional. I think it was the combination of just being really tired, not feeling so great, and stress. I also didn't drive so I felt a bit trapped, and sometimes I have trouble when I don't have any private time. Of course I was also being pretty hard on myself, as I never quite feel that what I have done is good enough... It's just a bit scary because when I fall I fall really hard, and when I feel like that I really just want to give up. Tonight I'm definitely feeling better though... I just wish I could find a little more consistent balance.
Tomorrow I have the day off from synchro so I am very happy about that! I'm trying to think what I might do... It doesn't happen too often haha. I think maybe it will be a good day to chill with my "babies" and perhaps do a little organizing. Since I'm staying at my Mom's house, I have less space, and I really need to go through everything as I'm sure I can throw a lot away. Otherwise I think it will just make me feel better to be more organized. Maybe it might also be a good day to go to the movies or something!
Tonight I ran again... It was super hard. I am trying to build up my endurance though, and hopefully it will get a little easier with time. It gives me something to work toward, so for that reason I really like doing it, (well I like it after the fact anyway haha.) I would one day love to be able to do a half marathon... I'm not sure I'll ever get to that point though. It would require me to start liking running a little more. I'm hoping it will grow on me though haha. I guess we shall see!
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