Today I am feeling really sad... Although I still feel relieved, I also feel thrown out like garbage. After all these years in the sport and this is how it ends for me? I'm not sure how to get over these feelings... It hurts like hell. :-(
On a positive note I have started applying for other jobs. Nothing important or anything just retail... I hope I can find something soon to keep me occupied and busy. I am already feeling lost and confused, so I need to find some purpose again ASAP. Hopefully something will work out...
Later in the day...
Cycling through different emotions all day... Sadness, hopelessness, anger, worthlessness, relief, hope... It's all been rather exhausting. I feel like my "life got flipped turned upside down," and I am trying to figure out where to go from here. Luckily I am in a position in my life that I can try to start over, and I'm just trying to find the will and the strength to fight. It's truly been a minute by minute battle. I hope that soon I may be able to find some peace within my self and in my life. I am going to try and hang on...
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